what are we doing right now?

last updated: january 5th, 2026!

our system host, elyzia, changed their name (from jáščer/j) in november, and they really love their new name!

life-things are a bit slow with the start of the new year, but we're making art and loving life. we recently took part in a project where we led workshops and curated an exhibition, and that exhibition will be up in our city's central library until the end of this month!

there's also a job opportunity that we're feeling optimistic about, for once, so here's hoping that we hear back with an interview offer soon... we've been unemployed for so long that getting a job is hard and scary, but we can do it...

we are part of an artists' collective in our city, and a lot of exciting opportunities come from that! for example, we just had our work exhibited in november (this is a different thing to the workshops/curation) and participated in a winter market.

we try to perform our poetry often, and aim to go to several different open mic nights a month - though sometimes the dates clash with other responsibilities. we are also trying to develop a collaborative performance piece with a friend who's a dancer!

since we are often performing, we are constantly generating new material. this is to say that we write pretty often. lately, the muse ariadne writing club has been a source of a lot of the inspiration, though we got behind on the prompts again!

we make lots of art all the time, and recently got super into exploring mixed media between physical and digital art. we've also been developing a conlang.

we also go to a photography group for young lgbt+ people every tuesday!

in general, when it comes to creativity, we're making an effort to make cool stuff as much as possible, but also to focus on direction and intent as much as quantity! we have a lot of ideas and a lot of directions we could take things, so we can't let the wealth of choice give us decision paralysis as we work towards actualising the plans we have in mind. because of this, we're actually going to start making a visual novel and we are determined to complete it by 2027!

to be honest, a lot of what we do is stuff we consider "work-related" and "productive", and we have an unhealthy complex about staying on that grindset. so we've been trying to allow ourselves to unwind sometimes, and just enjoy life. we do genuinely enjoy working, but there needs to be a balance, and when we find ourselves getting extremely stressed out about the idea of not working, we know we should be kinder to ourselves.

we're constantly on a journey to improve our physical health and it may be slow and difficult, but it is worth it and important to us... recently we got some good bloodwork results, which is nice.

okay, but what about media and hobbies? well, we really like to read books. we mostly read translated (usually japanese) contemporary fiction. we also like to watch films and anime, and are trying really hard to let ourselves play games. we're currently playing little goody two shoes!

we may not always have the time to indulge media, but it somehow feels easier to allow ourselves to enjoy things nowadays, which is really good!

in conclusion, life is so incredibly precious and wonderful, but we need to get a "real" job pretty badly. it's always like this, but one day it won't be - and life will be even more gorgeous then.

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